Well, I jinxed myself with my last blog entry. I'm not so zen these days at all. Doesn't it seem to always happen that way? I guess that's the rollercoaster part of the process, huh? I could do without it, to be honest.

Nothing big happened, we were expecting a referral within a certain time frame and that time frame came and went. Not only that but someone else from our agency received a referral during that time frame and THAT is how I came to realize we were not getting ours. It sucks to be so simultaneously happy for someone else and miserable for yourself. But I know it is coming. In June. Sometime. And with that knowledge I can get back on my zen wagon, I hope. My strategy: assuming today is NOT the day and moving forward. Assuming the day is at the END of the month, not the beginning. So far it is only working a little.

But I can tell I am starting to feel better, my pity party is ending. I have picked up my knitting again - a good sign. I'm back to thinking about packing lists and buying a car seat. We are discussing names again and have them narrowed down to two - Madeline and one other. Unfortunately for the title of this blog, the other name will likely be the chosen one :-) We are on a hunt for a great middle name. I want it to be one syllable and not end with a 'y' or 'ie'. Any suggestions?